Sparkling Nightmares and Los Angeles Dreams.

I KILLED IT

So. :D

 That was random. <3

 Isha gonna eatchu :D -Kierstan moment!
 xD I'm watching "I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant" and this one's in labor. :D

 Okay, this is a stupid entry.

 :[] :[]

 This is really random. I had my friends over this weekend! xD It was almost fun :D
 Don't ask about the almost

 Uhm.

I think that's all I have to say

OH~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIERSTAN!! <3333 I FUCKING LOVE YOU! :D

 Love, Loden<3

Love Me Hate Me Lust and Greed.

Bahaha :D I did that to get your attention.

So I've been sitting here for awhile, I went to school for about 20 minutes this morning, threw up, and went home.

It's been a bit of a bad week for me.

One of my best friends commited suicide, another is threatening it, I have to go to my dad's, and I have some sort of stomach flu that only happens like once a day.

I'm hoping it'll go away by next week...

-giggles- I ish taken<3

By Corinne :D  <3 Ahahahaha

She makes my world go round<3 She's my other half and I think I might die without herr.
And I mean that shiett.

-sigh-

I'm tired. Really tired.

It's been hard to think all week and even harder not to break down crying out of frustration.

I'm really quite flustered at the concept of life right now. Kinda makes me wanna curl up in a corner and die.

But I won't, because I know I've got people to live for and a life to complete. -blink-

I'm gonna go draww. 

Love, Loden<3

FWAH!! :D

Haha, okay, Imma sum up my past few days in a few sentences because Corinne will be here in a little bit:

I love Corinne :D Besties ferr life<3

Come here to see the daily update and randomness: http://www.youtube.com/LodenSixx

WHAA!

xD I've been hanging out with Robbie and Tyler and Kierstan a lot lately :D

Uhm uhm uhm

THE HALLOWEEN DANCE WAS AMAZING :DDDDDDDDDD

My teacher is still a really gross-smelling dumbass

I finished off a carton of ice cream yesterday cuz I'm a fatass

Aaaaannddd.

I think that's it

OH! Single life is amazing xD

I dyed my hair pink, purple, and black. AMAZINGNESS

And

NOW I think that's it :D

Carving pumpkins and finishing up costumes tonight ^-^

Corinne's coming with me to the par-tay :D

Bye guys! LEAVE ME SHIT OR I'LL EAT YEW xD

Love, Loden<3

Bahaha :D

xD Fuck it! My world is great. Britton's an asshole and I can't change people.

Okay so my computer crashed and I'm using my papap's and it's fun typing on it :D YAYYY~

I have to go to my dad's this weekend lmao

[:

I'm hoping that Corinne and Emilee can come wif meeee<3

lmao

[:

WHEEEEE PUFFINS

What?

Okay anyways, this is what happened this weekend [this is me hoping I don't get my shit busted xD]

Robbie came over and he got locked out of his house so we kept  him in my room and he ended up spending the night. xD lmao.

I realised three whole damn times that night that I smuggled a [LEGAL] Mexican into my house.

xD YAY!

We had a lot of fun though [: I was laying down and Robbie's knees were like...one against the back of the other, so I just laid my head there and let Corinne put her feet on me and Emilee lay on my legs. I locked my door and we passed out, I woke up for like five minutes at 3:30ish and I was like, "Whaaaa?" cuz when I woke up Robbie was holding my hand and he was sleeping and wouldn't let go. It was akward.

I finally gave up and went back to sleep lmao

So we all ended up waking up again at like 4, sat around and talking for a little bit, Corinne and I fell asleep on the floor at like 4:30 or 5 and Robbie was laying in that little space between my bed and my closet door, and Emilee was the only one on my bed. xD

Promptly waking up at 6:30ishh, we talking for a lot longer then we planned, waited for my madre to go to work, then ventured out for a little bit at 8. So when we came back inside we played hide and seek :D Then Robbie had to leave...he came back at 7 that night and we planned on kidnapping him again but he got grounded.

So a half hour after he left I got  hit by food poisoning and everyone flipped out [everyone being Corinne and Emilee. lmao]...Momma came home and it was liek magical. xD

She gave me happy pills and I passed out on her bed. [:

And from today's adventures?

Hmm.

Well I was at school and got in trouble for talking. This is SECOND GRADE SHIT. Mr Underwood needs to get it through his thick skull that we're not his little third graders from two years ago. Asshole.

He gives us a fifteen minute detention, wtf? xD

My voice class is liek awesomee.

I have to finish my unit on shading in visual arts though. >:|

Corinne ditched me today lmao, she went home during lunch

Other then that I don't think there's like much else..

xP

OHHH! YESTERDAY!

I was with Tyler, Robbie, Bob, Jordan, and Taylor [we're friends again] yesterday and it was like great lol

Tyler set off a frickenn firecracker and he got in trouble xD Then we were sitting on the walls around the dumpsters and we got yelled at.

o.0 Como esta? You'd have to live here to understandd this next part. I live in a rick kids' complex. In a rich kid neighbour hood. You know what that means?

Stalkers and kidnappers. That's what it means.

Haha I have no idea what this has to do with anything

o_o

-dies-

Love, Loden<3

PS: I CALL MUFFINS! :D -Corinne

I Thought You Loved Me.

Forbidden Experiments.

Ages of Glittering Eclipses.

In Love...And Heartbroken.?

I LIEK MUFFINS!

Depressing Shit.

And while they're being happy...

Oh, shit xD

The State of the World...

Is a piece of FUCKING SHIT.
 I hate it. I just do. It hates me so I'll fucking hate it back. No FUCKING hakuna matata for me.

 TAYLOR IS SUCH A LITTLE PIECE OF SHIT. I hope she dies. She fucking told Robbie a bunch of BULLSHIT and he broke up with me for no reason. I tried to fucking explain and I don't even get a chance. UGH. I GIVE UP. LIFE'S A BITCH, OKAY? Love is just another slow form of SUICIDE. Next time he asks it's fucking NO, because I cried my god damn eyes out in the bathroom at the MIDNIGHT PREMIERE OF HARRY POTTER. FUCKING SHIT, IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A GOOD NIGHT. WHAT ARE PEOPLE'S MOTHERFUCKING ISSUES? HUH? What the FUCK did I do to deserve this SHIT? I might just be being a stuck up ASS, but all I ever fucking DID was GIVE. I loved to be loved and this is what I fucking GET? I don't even EXPECT fucking RESPECT anymore, that's how bad it is.

POINT BLANK, I PICK SHITTY FUCKING FRIENDS. THEY CAN ALL GO FUCKING DIE, EXCEPT JESSICA, KALIE, CARLI, AND KIRSTEN. {And the internet besties<3}

 I'm so fucking scared to say yes to guys anymore. I just had my heart ripped out, stomped on, torn apart, thrown in a pit of acid, chewed up, spat out, set on fire, thrown on the ground, and then handed back to me shredded to pieces. It fucking HURTS. I don't CRY for ANY OLD FUCKING THING. Maybe it is stupid, but what the FUCK? And I'm afraid it'll happen again. I don't want it to. But I have to take chances, I suppose.

highlight of my night: Harry Potter movie, and the three gay guys that walked by me crying and one of them said, "Are you okayy?" OMG. I loved them all. <3333

 Jessica and Kalie wanted to be there for me so bad. I wanted them to be there but...Kalie has to get her stitches out...they said maybe tomorrow. <3 I'm hoping so, then Carli will get to meet them hopefully. She's gonna be in town and wants to spend the night.[:

I learned tonight that amazing friends are hard to find...because I've got the best you'll ever see. They're damn sexii and awesomely themselves.<3

Anyways...I'm so bored...I stayed up all night and I'm tired as hell. I don't want to sleep though, I wanna stay up with Jamie for awhile. It's currently 6:42AM. x_x

 On the bright side, school starts August 10th. I'm really happy, kinda hoping I'll find some friends.

 You people need to listen to the song BrightSide (SixFeetTall) by NeverShoutNever!

 I love that song so much right now...and it's totally out of my usual range of music, right? xD I've grown to like techno/emo stuffs.  The singers are cute too. :D

 -sigh- I guess I'll free you of my random rantings and shitz. {PS: Message if you wanna text me, I'm bored most days and have nothing better to fucking do... :D}

 Love, Loden

Waterbeds xD

{ 8:03 PM, Wednesday 8 July 2009 } { 0 comments } { Link }

Robbie

You Pick Out A Bag Of Starburst. No One Stands Up, You Look At Me +& I'm Just Staring At The Ground Saying Things Like, "Shit!" You Turn Back Round. It's Your Friggin' Ex, Robbie! You Walk Into the Closet, He Soon Follows, With the Starburst. 
He Takes Out His Ipod And sits +& Listens To Rather Loud Music. You Can Hear It From The Other Side Of The Closet. It Was Your Song, Go:Audio - So Quiet You Were...
...Say What You Want, I Don't Care If It Hurts Me
Say What You Want, I Can Take It Then You'll See
How I Am, And Where We Stand...
You Feel Tears In Your Eyes.
You Walk Over To Him +& Kneel Down In Front Of Him.
He Looks Up Then Quickly Looks Down Again.
You Pull His Chin Up So He's Looking At You Again.
You Kiss Him Passionately. He Joins In Eagerly. You Pull Away Before He Deepens It. You Hold Him Close And Whisper "I'm Sorry For Everything" In His Ear. He Pushes You Away, Then Pulls You Back In For Another Kiss, And This Time, You Let Him Deepen It.
That's All You Do For The Remaining 3 Minutes.
When I Open The Door, I Scream. :)
You Go Back To His After The Party ;). But, His Dad Is Drunk, And You Know What Happens When He's Drunk, You Both Run As Fast As You Can Out Of The House. You Stop To Catch Your Breath In An Alley. Robbie Asks You To Run Away With him, You Ofcourse Do.
You Are Taken In By A Rich Family The Next Week, After You've Explaiend Why You Were Sleeping Outside Their Gate.
A Few Months Later, Robbie Proposes, You Say Yes
And the Next Day You Find Out Your Pregnant.
Robbie Becomes A Famous Musician. You Follow Him Everywhere on Tour With Your New Born Son.
You Marry Backstage At Download, And Are Friends With Loads Of Big Rockstars, Like, Corey Taylor, Gerard Way, Frank Iero, And All Of Avenged Sevenfold.
You Get Killed 10 Years Later By One Of Robbie's Stalkers.
Your Kid Survives +& Becomes A Rockstar Too Though [:

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

So I took that quiz on myspace like, 5 minutes ago...it's fuckin' creepy shit, I think. The love triangle straightened out.[:

You can only guess, seeing as the result is REALLY weird and shit...he's not my ex anymore...and I was looking at the result with my jaw on the ground...x___x

AND ON TOP OF THAT HE STEALS MY STARBURSTS D:< HOW CREEPY IS THAT?!

Note to self: 7 Minutes In Emo Heaven can be REALLY wacky.

And on to the better...<3

xD Me, Kirsten, and Robbie have some really good times together...

So we were at my house and sitting on the waterbed, and out of nowhere Kirsten screams "KITTEH NUM NUMZZ!!!" and I went "o_o Meow?" So then Robbie like, jumps on top of me and bites me and goes, "Bahaha. You're now my kitty num nums." So I bit him back and I was like, "NO! YOU'RE MYYY KITTEH NUM NUMZ!" and we end up laughing so hard...

Then we were hanging out at the little pool earlier and I was sitting on a lounge chair with him and Kirsten goes, "It's hot out here...where can we go?" I said, "Uhhmm...we can't go to Robbie's because his brother's home...and we can't go to your house because your mom's a bitch." And Robbie just looks over and says, "That only leaves your house, which is WAY the hell on the other side of the complex! D:<" So I stood up and went, "There's a waterbed! Let's go!" And as we're walking, Kirsten goes, "Yeah, because a waterbed TOTALLY makes us wanna go to your house." and Robbie was like, "Kinda...makes me wanna go inside..." so I smacked him and he's like, "You would too! It's cool and squishy!" And we laughed so hard.

Taylor gets on my fucking nerves. But I have to stay friends with her...I dunno why...it's just one of those things...

I miss Jessicaa]: She broke her finger so I can't see her for awhilee. I'm so sad...

Anyways...

^-^ I love you people right now...especially Robbie and Kirsten...

FUCKING KITTEH NUM NUMZ! :D

Love, Loden~

Love Triangles.

{ 4:31 PM, Sunday 21 June 2009 } { 0 comments } { Link }

   I really don't get those. Do any of you think those are retarded? Comment.
  So Taylor is in love with Tyler, but Tyler likes Jessica, and Jessica likes Tyler but they're not together. Me and Nina are the ones that are trying to get Taylor and Tyler together, but we feel guilty for leaving Jessica out of it, and then she's left alone with me. And no-one wants to be in my loser loner circle. So now I have to find Jessica a guy.

   And then there's MY triangle. Robbie likes me and I like him but he's with Hannah and Hannah only likes him as a friend but doesn't want to break his heart, but what Hannah DOESN'T know is that whole thing with me and Robbie. It's really confusing. And I have no clue which triangle will break first. o.o;

  Anyways...yesterday I was in the hot tub with Taylor, Nina, and Tyler and out of nowhere Tyler tries to dunk me under so when I finally give up I can feel his legs wrap around my waist so when I resurface I'm like, "WHAT THE HELL?" and we start rough housing...I'm determined to kill him...I think he was just looking for an excuse to get a boner. >.< I think Tyler likes it when I wear my swimsuit out there...

 
Now then. I really miss Jessica, Amber, and Robbie. :[ I wish Robbie would come back. And Jessica and Amber could come over. D:< Stupid summer trips and family issues. Gawd. Why do they have to interferer with me and my friends' summer plans? {And one of my friends' to get laid?? o_o Although that's not so bad, I don't think LOL}

 So I remembered this conversation I had with Robbie awhile back. It turned into a majour raunch-fest.


   ME: You know what? You're such a skank.
   ROBBIE: Idaho. o:<
   ME: What does Idaho have to do with anything?
   ROBBIE: I dunno.
   ME: Hol-hold on wait, what?
   ROBBIE: You called me a skank, I said Idaho, and then you asked what Idaho had to do with anything and I said I dunno.
   ME: Oh...
   ROBBIE: ...
   ME: Dumbass.
   ROBBIE: SLUTMUFFIN!
   ME: o: I'm hurt.
   ROBBIE: omg. -pout- Sorry. -hug-
   ME: ...-grin-
   ROBBIE: Oh shit. I know that look!


   I won't go into detail after that.
   Other then that...there's nothing else to say so...peace. (^^)V

   Love, Loden

Insane in the Brain.

{ 1:15 AM, Thursday 18 June 2009 } { 0 comments } { Link }

   Holy fuck, this is going to take awhile. e_e
 
   First off: My best friends IRL currently are Jessica, Taylor, Robbie, Kirsten, Carli, and Jaelyn. I love them to death. <3333
 
   Now then.

   ARTIST: Guns N' Roses

   SONG: You Could Be Mine
  
   ALBUM: Use Your Illusion II


    So how's everyone today? Good? that's what I thought.
    Life is currently okay. I've started guitar lessons and I'm trying to learn a few tabs for a few songs online. It's pretty easy, once you get used to it. Things go up and things go down {mostly down, but hey, it's okay}. I've gotten used to the complex. It's my home. And I think I can live with that. Most of my best friends are in walking's distance because Taylor, Robbie, and Kirsten all live in the complex. It WOULD be all good, except Robbie's in Santa Rosa and I'm especially sad because I know him wayyyy better then any of them. No offense. Still love you guys, lol :D I call him twice a week, sometimes three, and most of the time he never picks up, which kinda pisses me off because we're like brother and sister now. It's annoying when your brother is stuck in a boring place in some other state and his phone is a piece of shit so he can't pick up, huh?

     CoR is going alright, I think. I reaalllyyyy need to update, which I will, as soon as I figure out how the hell to break apart the one entry I wrote in this notebook that's like 7 pages, front and back. >.> EEEEEEEEEK e_e But anyways.

      Now, I'm currently dating Randy-- not really though, he's in Bullhead City until fucking JULY and me, Robbie, Jessica, Taylor, and Tyler have to wait that long for Operation Breakup.

      Here's how it goes:

      Step one: Jill sits next to Randy on electric box in front of wall.
      Step two: Robbie, Jessica, Taylor, and Tyler hide behind wall.
      Step three: Jill leans in, just barely away from kissing Randy, beelines for ear, whispers: "I'm breaking up with you, fag. I know you're cheating."
       Step four: Jill bitchslaps Randy.
       Step five: Robbie, Jessica, Taylor, and Tyler jump up from behind wall and start bitching out and dissing Randy.
       Step six: Group of five {excluding Randy} walk into Jill's house laughing their asses off.
       Step seven: Randy becomes a depressed little boy.


        TADAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. Operation breakup. I know I have it written down somewhere. :D We're so evil. Anyways. I'm supposed to feel bad about it, Tyler says. I say that it's a load of bullshit. DUDE TYLER IS SO ANNOYING EVERYTIME I SEE HIM HE TOTALLY GOES "OMG THAT'S THE GIRL THAT'S DATING RAAAAAAAANDY" and then I go "You hoar. stfu." :]

        Ahahaha xD So I was talking to Robbie on the phone a week or so ago and it's me and Taylor on one line and him on the other, and we're talking about having sold my soul to the devil. Conversation went like this:



        TAYLOR: Wait, so you sold your soul to RANDY?
        LODEN: Nooo. But when I sent it, it got sent back. My soul was too evil for them.
        ROBBIE: -cough, mutter- You only sold your soul so you could fuck Slash. -cough, cough- God, sorry. Dumbass house smells funny.
        LODEN: I swear to god, I though you said something. Did you?
        ROBBIE: Uhhm...no...
        LODEN: Oh. Kay.
        TAYLOR: Wha? I totally spaced out.

         ~LATER THAT EVENING, DURING CONVERSATION~

            LODEN: Hey, wait. Robbie, seriously, what did you say earlier about Slash?
         ROBBIE: Oh. I said you only sold your soul so you could fuck Slash. That's all. {at this point I could tell he was grinning.}
         LODEN: Oh. Kay. ^-^
         ROBBIE: -silence-
         LODEN: HEY WAIT WTF
         ROBBIE: -bursts out laughing- Fail.
         LODEN: Stfu, half homo
         ROBBIE: Psh. You're straight as a circle.
         LODEN: You're straight as a spiral! D:<
         ROBBIE: ...SO? {Robbie's bi like me, that's why we were going back and forth about this}
         LODEN: -giggles-

         Man, I love my only brother. xD

         Okay, well. I need to go. Nighty night, sleep tight, and whatever you do, don't let Nikki bite.

         Love, Loden<3

  

Tired of Shit.

{ 1:07 AM, Sunday 24 May 2009 } { 0 comments } { Link }

    Song: Home Sweet Home

    Artist: Motley Crue

    Album: Theatre of Pain

 

       Wow. Trust me, you've got no idea what kind of bullshit I'm tired of right now.

        I think my friends fucking hate me and want me to die. My IRL ones. Only like...one of them still loves me. And she lives in California.

        I'm tired of being shittalked when I'm not around and being used and being accused of stuff I didn't do. It's getting old really fucking fast and someone is telling Izzy that I'm talking shit behind her back again. This is how I got the shit beat out of me last time, because somebody lied to Izzy about me and she showed up at the McDonald's across the street. I'm going to end up getting killed one of these days if whoever's doing this bullshit to me keeps it up. If I ever find out who it is, their ass is going straight into the dumpster after I've thoroughly beaten them.

          I can't keep one single damn secret in that group. Everything I tell Emilee goes to Izzy, even when she promises not to tell her. Everything I say to Maddie goes to Izzy, even when SHE promises. I get picked on for some of the stuff I've told those two, but maybe it was my fault for being the dumbass that I always am to them for telling them. It's stupid. I'm getting tired of it, and I wish these people would just. Fucking. Leave. Me. Alone. I've been a damn good friend. I kept secrets, I've provided stuff, and they always end up at my house, spending my money, wasting my time, all for stupid shit. I'm fucking LOYAL.

           I'm getting so pissed off because school is all stupid shit and drama now. I can't wait to get to ACAA. New teachers, new people, new classes, interesting things. It won't be a damn line in the sand like the school I'm at now. ACAA is where Jamie met her best friends. It's where Jamie met her amazing teachers and got better at the things she does so great now. So quite honestly, I can't wait to get away.

          I'm supposed to be going to Colorado first week in June and Maine sometime in July. Oh goodie. God damn, I just want to stay home this summer. But I haven't seen any of those relatives for awhile, so I suppose it's a good thing to do.

         And with this note, I shall bid you farewell until the next time I rant/post.

         Love, Loden

Stick that in your juicebox.

{ 5:53 PM, Friday 1 May 2009 } { 0 comments } { Link }

     Song: Stick that In Your Juicebox

      Artist: Dot Dot Curve :)

      Album: Unknown

 

        Ahaha. I'm so bored :P Ayeayeayehateyoubiitch...ayayayeayehateyoubitch...rightnowrightnow...Dot Dot Curve :) is amazing<3

         So I guess there's nothing to talk about anymore. There's always something wrong with me in some way :P Whatever, I don't care anymore. Hopefully when I go to ACAA next year I'll find some friends that don't care about faults. It's a hell of a lot better then this boring line school. Haha xD

          I give up on guys. They're all retarded. {I knew that a long time ago...but...I was dumb enough to fall for it and look where that's gotten me!! Lol.} I'll just stick with CoR. It's already perfection. <3 And it has the perfect guy thar :D {Slasheh}

         Other then that...I dunno...xD Have a nice night, lol. :D

          Love, Loden<3

     

I Feel Amazing.

{ 9:36 PM, Wednesday 8 April 2009 } { 0 comments } { Link }

      My ex took me back and I love him like I always did. I was hanging out with Tyler, Randy, and Bike Dude and he showed up and decided to talk to me...then he texted me and he asked me back out with him and I'm like, "YES @_@" because I was tired of being asked why this that or some other shit happened with him...and he acted pretty sincere about it when he was talking to me. PLUS HE LET ME GIVE HIM A HUG. HE'S STILL WARM :DDDDD Robbie is fucking awesome <3

       Fuck my life but at least I have one, right? Haha, I've spent most of the night texting him. The internal screen on my phone blacked out so I can't use it anymore ;-; I don't exactly like using the touch screen to type, but it'll do. Dad is calling to ask about the insurance tomorrow, I hope I can replace the phone. I love it along with all its damage but still. I'm still trying to figure out how the hell to fix the touch screen so it's the full keyboard type, so whatever.

       Imma go nao before I get more happy and rant. Lulz.

       Love, Loden <33333333

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