Listening To: If God Smokes Cheap Cigars by Envy On The Coast

ugh. sick. perfect time to write a blog post, no?

well, i haven't had much muse to write a blog post. but it's 10:47pm and i'm sicker than heeell. so why not.
yesterday i got home from summer's house, we had a sort of 'sick party' and watched movies with our empty ice cream buckets and sierra mist and chicken noodle soup, anyway, i got home at around 8 and then it was bed time and i really didn't feel good. like, i /REALLY/ didn't feel good and so at about 9 i started puking my guts out - bye bye chicken noodle soup - and i didn't stop until about 6 or 7 am. i'm feeling better now, but i still have a high fever an all. i've been drinking apple juice and water all day and haven't had anything to eat. which reminds me, that while i was puking i would try to drink a little bit of water so i didn't get dehydrated and i would fall asleep and wake up and barf out the water i drank. you know, i actually like barfing water because it's comfortably warm and it doesn't have a taste - as opposed to when i barf food or stomach acid. anywayy.

so uhhhm. the dude, i was talking about asked me out a couple weeks ago. my crush - pretty much the hottest asshole on the planet. anyway. yeah. so. i said no. why? because he said "i was /told/ to ask you out" and "please say no" and i was all, wtf. and i said no. and i died a little inside. under the poop tube, standing in the woodchips. yeah. it was awkward. i don't know why he did it, or anything. because he was already going out with some bitch. and the day before they were talking about me in math. so a definite wtf.

and uhhm. a week and a day afterwards, a highschooler killed himself. yeah. how great. i didn't go to the reception or the funeral. i was too busy. school was depressing. and people that didn't even know him acted like he was their best friend. and i'll be honest, i didn't know him at all. and my mum decides to tell me the details about it on the car ride to school. about how he wrapped a towel around his head before he shot himself because he didn't want to make a bloody fucking mess. yeah. it's been depressing. :/

nothing else really to say... night nao. <3