2008-Nov-9 - THANKS!

2008-Nov-7 - Please OH please help me???

hmph! Hi peoples, I have a problem a very serious problem well at the moment I have 2! number 1! my mum got me a new sim card for my phone so I could get 1 cent text but this also changes my number and erases all my other stuff except for people in my phone book! Anyway I really needed to text Locky before 7 tonight but it looks like thats not happening, because his phone is not a telstra phone like mine I can't send a messge to him, I mean I can but I have to reply to some of his messages and of course he can't text me because I have changed my number it SUCKS and it was really, really improtant what I needed to tell him!!

Number 2 I have this friend right and well I am not naming names otherwise "the friend" will go completly off at me and will hate me for the rest of "the friends" life ok here we go well you see "this friend" has latley been flirting with Locky, I sit back and always watch and I never do anything about it and it really hurts me inside. I know that this is obviously jelousy I am showing and I can admit that but "this friend" is one of my bff's and she is flirting with basically MY WHOLE WORLD!!! (meaning Locky) from blog posts in the past you should know how I feel about Locky, how much I adore him and stuff. So all I am asking is to all my friends (but only meaning this to one of them) LAY THE HELL OFF I don't get why you are doing this to me, have I done something to upset you? I dunno but it has to stop PLEASE I have brused nuckles from punching things because I have nothing else to take my anger out on. As I am typing this inside I am burning up, my eyes are welling with tears, and feel like I could EXPLODE with saddness, anger, frustration and fear so please STOP IT if you want me to commit suicide or something tell me but please if I loose Locky I don't know what I would do, and now as I am typing that one sentance my eyes have started balling so PLEASE STOP! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!

ezz :(

2008-Nov-4 - what to talk about?........hmmmm.....I KNOW! the weekend!

Hi bloggers, I was struggling to come up with something to talk about when I immediately thought of the weekend for no particular reason. Well this one weekend was good because it was a 5 day weekend which meant extra days off school, which is what I really needed. I will start on Saturday because that was when all the actual events happened. Well our local town (Colac) had it's once a year show and I went for a few hours on Saturday (only to see Locky out of school) and anyway the first hour I was there I walked around with my dad and my sister for a bit until I met up with Kt and Micky (my bff's) we walked around a bit and then I started texting Locky he told me that he would meet me at 1:00pm and he pretty much did. Once I found him the 4 of us kept walking around with each other Kt and Micky walking in front while me and Locky walked behind. We found an old grandstand to sit in for a bit, Locky bought some fairy floss and kept asking me if he could buy me anything but I said no to everything except for a hug or 7! LOL! I just didn't want him to buy me anything because it didn't seem fair I had 50$ of my own and so what if he had 90$ Micky and Kt wanted to go on the fairs wheel and me and Locky just didn't want to go on it....well I wasn't stuffed and Locky has a thing about heights and fairs wheels that go faster than usual. So Kt and Micky went on the wheel and me and Locky walked off on our own (which seems reasonable) then my dad started calling me and then I told him to text me cause where I was, was too loud to talk on a phone, so me and Locky went off to find my dad and we eventually did. Locky met my dad and my sister for the first time and then I gave Locky hugs and forbidded him from buying me anything....I just hope he didn't LOL!

Sunday I went to my friends place with all my other friends for a sleepover. You see at my friends place they have a shed out the back which has all been done up so it has a toilet, fridge, a couch and a projector which obviously projects movies/DVDs put into a DVD player which is connected to the projector..........*few*.............and anyway we spent ages watching DVDs and for dinner we had a BBQ. When it got dark we played spotlight in a paddock and then it got awesome when the lighting came out! We spent the rest of the night eating chips and lollies, drinking soft drinks and watching movies. When it came to the time when some people wanted to sleep we had to be quiet, but me and my 2 friends couldn't stop laughing and goofing off (in other words being totally carefree) we started to piss off some people so we went out into the porch sort of area to talk......and it went on for a bit but there is too much to explain but then some of the others from inside couldn't slept so they got up and then we all figured that it would be best if we all stopped fighting and me and my 2 friends that kicked ourselves out came back in and made our beds and when I got comfy I sort of drifted off to sleep with everyone else talking. In the morning I was the last to wake up and at 2:00pm my dad took me and a couple of my friends home!

And well today was just a day where I slept into 12:00pm and did nothing but eat, watch TV, play the computer and complete a fair bit of homework, now I think I should shut up for a bit kk?

2008-Oct-29 - HEY YAH!

2008-Oct-27 - guys you learn love 'em

2008-Oct-20 - happy now good

2008-Oct-20 - BE HAPPY

2008-Oct-20 - yey yey yey!!!!..........*YEY!!*

2008-Oct-13 - PARTY

Yey this is my 50th entry for this blog and apart from that I have my boyfriend coming to the social with me!!!!!!

2008-Oct-9 - yey your happy

2008-Oct-9 - BE HAPPY

2008-Oct-9 - hi how are ya!!!!!

Hello, it has been a while and almost a weeks since we have started school for forth term. So far in the last 4 days many things have hapened good and bad. Back at school I get to see all of my friends that I have dearly missed and my most perfect Boyfriend in the world Locky....*sigh*.....A lot of my problems have revolved around friends because well some of my friends needed to let out what they really felt about some of us, and when I found out what that friend actually said I got really offended it also involved some of my other friends which really pissed me off....BUT rest assured me and that friend talked and the whole subject was forgotten about all she really ment to do was say what she really felt to other people! Now I have been struck by another personal problem, you see all the year 7's and 8's have been waiting for their schools social for like half the year it was posponed to second term when we found out that it was going to be held in 4th term and now finally it is that time of the year. Now the actual problem my boyfriend doesn't want to go and I am so close to convincing him to come.

Now the actual problem is that i feel that I am starting to get annoying and in term I am worried that he might avoid me if I continue on asking him to come, but I also risk another social of heart ache when I went last year when I was in year 7 the guy I liked didn't come because he was doing something really important the next day and I mean he was only a crush but now I am in a serious relationship in High school.....SO my final question is should I keep asking Locky to come to the social or not and risk another heart ache and no dancing with guys please help the social is in a few weeks!!!!!

2008-Sep-29 - THIS WILL MAKE MY BLOG HAPPY

2008-Sep-23 - COME

2008-Sep-23 - I love these pics

2008-Sep-23 - Hi

Hello peoples, it is the first few days of the 3rd term holidays, so far I have been very relaxed apart from the fact I got up last night to turn down the TV when a massive spider ran right out from under my feet I couldn't sleep for the rest of the night because I was afraid it would crawl up onto the bed AHHHHH I HATE SPIDERS!!! I am also very lonley you see, I am spending this lot of holidays in N.S.W (New South Whales) which is 13 hours from where we live in Victoria. I am apart from all of my very best friends and my NUMBER 1. Boyfriend Locky, one of my BFF's was having all of us (me and my friends) Over for a sleepover these holdidays and which has started today and well unfortunatley I couldn't come cause I am ages away. I mean the hols are good and everything but I miss everyone!!

Ezz!

2008-Sep-10 - HIYA

2008-Sep-10 - HIYA

2008-Sep-10 - Shut Up

Well hello, hello it has been a while and today has been a really weard day! I will tell you what happened, the day started off normally and then when it came to my Science class in periods 3-4 things changed one of my friends was asking me why I wasn't talking, the obvious reason was that I was doing my work and then she asked me to talk and then I said No! then again she asked why then I came up with the reason tha I hadn't talked to Locky enough and therefor I had nothing to talk about. It went on like that for a while she was telling me to get to know more guys so I don't always hang around with girls and I don't want to cause allt he guy at my school are arseholes (except for my friends that are guys thats why they are my friends!) and anyway after that I had another class with her and that was Art, Locky is also in my Art class. I went on not talking mostly to my cow of a friend but still talking to my boyfriend!

He makes me soooooo happy and he is one of the only things keeping me going (you know the other day he asked me if I was mad at him and I was like why would I be mad, then that night when I was walking with my BFF she said that if a guy asks if you are mad at them it means that they don't want to loose you!) - I mean how cute is that!? And anyway back to my day, after Art it was lunch and I hung around with my "OTHER" friends and after lunch I had another class with "That friend" we eventually got sick of not talking to eachother so we broke the silence wall!

The day got really weard when the creepyist and most retarded guy in school was looking at my friend (the one I was not talking to) and what was weard about it was he admitted to the whole class that he was looking at her (he was also looking at her up and down for like 5 minutes) IT WAS GROSS after that class me and my friend burst out of the classroom laughing and screaming it was sooooooo funny!

And finally to the end of this ENTRY I am fucking pissed off at my sister, you see we havn't been getting on well latley and I really like to tease her! You see in my family my sister is the "kind" and "caring" one and I am the "evil" and "tormenting" one I have gotten used to it but my sister is really good at being a total FUCKING COW and she knows how to get me really pissed off, but I can get her more pissed off that she starts to cry its such a sight!

Ezz!

P.S so in turn I would like a bunch of people to shut up so I can stop pulling my hair OUT!!

2008-Sep-1 - HI HI