My Tama Log
ï 2008-Oct-16 - Inadequate
Posted By Korax
Most people are unaware of the human feelings on the other side of the screen.
On November 4th 2007 the world lost it's sunshine, in the form of my brother Edward. People would think I'd be over it by now, but I still find myself in this low spot... everything seems duller here and it blocks my view of the world.
I am not incapable of being happy. I can become elated. I can laugh, I can play, I can tease. But deep inside of me there is still this pit of dread and unwant. When I am alone and there are no distractions I find myself poking at my imperfections. My weight. My awkwardness. My inability to cope with my feelings. People would say, "You just need more confidence."
Any confidence inspired within me is often short lived and crushed by memories of taunts and torture.
I can still hear my brother telling me I'd never amount to anything but a pole dancer. Practicing ballet made me a whore, along with going for walks in my leotard. Running away from harsh yelling made me a pussy. For a long time I believed it.
I think it has marked me forever, a scar that makes me incapable of truly seeing a beautiful girl in the mirror. Any beauty that I may have previously believed I had was snatched away from me when one of the few people who made me feel good about myself was really with someone else. I can't call it cheating, I guess we were never really dating to begin with. He just pitied me, didn't want me to kill myself because I was so sick of feeling wrong. Bad.
I started seeking out comfort in anorexia. I figured maybe if I was pretty that would be one less inadequacy to pick at. But I guess, in a most literal sense, I fail at failing. I can't keep myself from eating. Occasionally I can fast for one, maybe even two days. And just as suddenly as I started I find my fist in a cookie jar, my lips around a bottle of soda.
And I continue to feel inadequate.
And the cycle continues.
I suppose it wouldn't be so bad if I had friends I could put my feelings into. I wouldn't want to hurt my friends anymore, though. They all have their own depressing lives to deal with. I wouldn't want to burden them with the weight of another hurting friend. What could they do, anyway? Pat my back? Tell me it'll be alright? Take me to the counselor? I don't like confiding my feelings in any specific person, especially adults. I really don't like sympathy, either.
I just wish the sun would shine more often.
Light my way to happier times... |
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ï 2008-Sep-19 - hi
Posted By Beartchi
ï 2008-Sep-19 - sorry
Posted By Beartchi
ï Wednesday 13 August 2008 - japanese name
Posted By Sammy
ï June 28, 2008 - Hello Everyone!
Posted By ButterflyKisses
Hello Everyone!
Welcome to my Blogagotchi! I'm Sophia, I've been in love with Tamas since the age of 8! However as a young girl, I put them aside (like many other toys) and kind of forgot about them. Then later in middle school I saw some girls with them again, this time these were the "connections"! Wow was that amazing! They didn't have those when i first started collecting them. So I got into them once more, and then again put them aside. Finally, towards the end of last year I was on the internet googling electronic gadgets and stumbled across Tamagotchi v4.5! Wow again! lol. I had no idea Tamagotchis had gotten so advanced! So, I bought about 4 or 5 of them and then the craze went on and on! I've collected now 100something different tamagotchis! Including some rare ones like the Yasaashi, Devilgotchi, TamaOtch, Mothra, and Morino. I love them all rare and none!
I go to school and work full time so if I ever seem to disappear, that's why. But i'll always come back within a few days! So, be sure to check back and read about my new adventures with my tamas!
Can't wait to meet you all. Take care!
<3 Sophia
  
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ï 2008-Jun-9 - Secret Characters
Posted By Chamametchi
| Today i got watatchi and this fruit head character and i used the girl's dresser and the seasame pudding and 2 SECRET CHARACTERS! w00t |
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ï 2008-Jun-9 - Sorry bloggie(lol)
Posted By Chamametchi
ï 2008-Jun-9 - She is dumb....
Posted By Chamametchi
| MRS MAMETCHI AKA SAMANTHA IS NOW LYING THAT SHE MET MILEY CYRUS LAST NIGHT BUT I WAS SPYING ON HER (lucky me) AND SHE WAS HOLDING A STOLEN LIPSTICK!!! |
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ï 2008-Jun-9 - Whats happening
Posted By Chamametchi
Yeah i haven't been on for a while well my mametchi married a violetchi (Tama-zone said that if i marry those i get a cool family) anyways i was hoping for a Smart Family (not mame) and i didnt get it :( FUK U TAMA-ZONE!!!!!!!!
Also im hoping for a kuchipatchi next :) |
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ï 2008-May-21 - Yay!
Posted By Chamametchi
ï 2008-May-21 - Very mad
Posted By Chamametchi
| The other day i was at my cousin's house and my friend Jackie was over and me, my cousin, my sister and samantha were doing this thing and it was dumb. it wasn't my idea and Jackie wasn't doing anything! |
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ï 2008-May-20 - Madness...
Posted By Chamametchi
| I AM VERY MAD NOW! I MARRIED MY SUKATCHI TO VIOLETCHI AND I HAD 100% THEY EVOLVED INTO MAMAMETCHI AND MEMEPAPATCHI. SOMEONE TOLD ME SUKATCHI MARRYS VIOLETCHI TO GET TO THE VIOLET FAMILY! |
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ï 2008-May-19 - Waiting and Waiting
Posted By Chamametchi
Ive been waiting for my tamagotchis to get married. I know it takes 2 days and school time has been cutting in to my time for them. Here are the characters that i have:
Tama 1
Memetchi
Sukatchi
Tama 2
Mametchi (cant read? its mametchi)
Chantotchi
Kuchipatchi
From tama 1 i will marry sukatchi because Sukatchi + violetchi and 100% is the violet family and from tama 2 i will marry Mametchi because Mametchi + Chantotchi is the mame family and i really want the mame family. The only family i've had is the meme family. Well at least its better than nothing. Samantha always gets the blended and she has never and i mean Never had a full family. GTG
-Little chamametchi |
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ï 2008-May-19 - Im back
Posted By Chamametchi
The only reason why i went there is because it was my grandpa's birthday. Samantha is up to her dirty tricks!!!!! When i was walking to school (my mom makes me) Samantha and my stupid cousin were in a tree and i threw a ballon with maple syrup in it!!!!! My cousin and samantha are never late so that made them late and my cousin she pretended that her leg was broken and she didn't run the mile today!! she is evil like samantha. Uh oh. Could this be? SAMANTHA IS MAKING MY COUSIN PART OF THE FASHION SQUAD!!! Don't know the fashion squad? Well stupid samantha (thats what i call her) created this club called the fashion squad and 2 of her so called "crew" are in it and they judge EVERYONE'S fashion. my cousin dresses nice and she is to samantha oh no MY COUSIN DON'T DO THIS IF YOUR OUT THERE!!!! PLEASE
-Little Chamametchi |
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ï 2008-May-18 - Boredness
Posted By Chamametchi
Sigh... Im going to my grandpa's for a day because my moma is going to CS(colorado springs) and i heard her talking about going to the cheesecake factory O__O weird and the "ness" at the end of each word yeah i just made that up because it was cool  and Samantha stole that ha ha and im going to be leaving in a mintue so ill be on the computer for a little bit intill i go. CHEESECAKE!!!!! oh great. Now that word is stuck in my head 0__0 well intill then im just going to live my short life and well yeah.
-Little Chamametchi |
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ï 2008-May-18 - HA HA!
Posted By Chamametchi
They are dying!!! they have no hearts!!!! if you don't know what i'm talking about then im testing to see what the V5 looks like when its dead. WOO HOO! NOW I CAN SEE ITS DEADNESS XD  |
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ï 2008-May-18 - Oh Great
Posted By Chamametchi
Samantha or on tamatalk Mrs mametchi is even more bratty online. She is so mean i was reading her posts and she was bragging about herself over and over and over and over and get this my cousin is BFFs with her. I think my cousin showed her tamatalk and decided to tease me. I know Samantha hates me and thats why she joined tamatalk. Its a good thing i have a blog
-Little Chamametchi |
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ï 2008-May-18 - Mean girl :|
Posted By Chamametchi
Ok at school me, my sister, my cousin and my cousin's brother were at school and i talked to samantha AKA Mrs mametchi said that she had tamatalk and i thought she was trying to tease us and when i went on i saw her tamatalk. Mrs mametchi is the spoiled poupular one at school and i really REALLY HATE THAT GIRL!!!! so what if shes poupular or not i still hate her and her looks ok?!?! i said it
- Little Chamametchi |
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ï 2008-May-18 - A tama evolved!
Posted By Chamametchi
One of my tamas evolved! I have a mametchi, chantotchi and kuchipatchi. Im hoping for a mame family and im still testing the tama dying. here is his hearts:
Hungry
Happy
♥
Ha ha its dying already
-Little chamametchi |
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ï 2008-May-17 - Yay!
Posted By Chamametchi
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bye!